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Wednesday 20 October 2010

Sometimes in life it rains and sometimes it pours. But when these things happen ill be there with an umbrella. I cant change the fact its raining but i can help keep you dry.

"Because when the sun shines, we shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend"


Saturday 9 October 2010

Monday 4 October 2010

Pretty is temporal but beauty is eternal

Collage !!

Yes I'm at Uni and i was cutting out and sticking but don't they look pretty !






Put wee laminated covers on them and everything =] Simple things

Positivity

Ever noticed i very very very very rarely blog about anything negative ?

I think I have matured in the last year beyond belief. Left school just over a year ago and have had quiet a year and a bit.

Been to France
This taught me alot about what's important in life and what isn't. As as experience I didn't really enjoy it but it was diffenetly worth it. It taught me so many things it may have taken me years to realise otherwise. And yes I was miserable 90% of the time but it was valuable and its given me a positive attitude

Been working like a mad woman
I love my job in all honesty, except maybe the uniform. I love the banter. I love the people. I love always having something to do. I love the unpredictability of it - when you answer that phone you have no idea who's on the other end of it. Oh yeah and discount pizza - yummy =]

University
Big step, a little behind everyone else with it but hey ho. Freshers has been and gone and commuting isn't as bad as i thought it would be, even the getting up at six in the morning bit. Haven't decided wither i'm enjoying it yet or not, think its too early to tell still.

Letters

If i could write a letter to my younger self i wonder what id tell her. Maybe :

- Don't listen to them, they have no idea what they're on about most of the time
- The friends will come with time, accept her shes no friend to you
- The spots will fade, eventually
- Enjoy your school years, they are some of the best times you will have.
-Just take the pills, sea sickness is not fun
- Don't tell them about that crush
- Buy nicer socks!

But why is nearly everything in that list something I'd warn against doing. Everything that i did and went through when i was younger made me into the person I am today and I'm fairly glad I'm me, i cant imagine being anyone else.

"Don't waste the person you are"

Perception

Isn't it strange to think that others may percieve you as a completely different person than who you are. People may assume that your the upbeat bubbly one but you dont always feel like that, not all the time.
You get frustrated and angry, you cry more than you probably should, you doubt yourself, you over analyse everything.
Then you realise your not helping yourself. So you break the problems down into bitesize chunks, you change the stuff you can and you smile like a fruit loop and find the brightside in the stuff you cant.
You find the daft little things that make your day and you realise that your current situation is not forever. Things will get better ad in the mean time you write about it in the hope someone else will read it and realise that they are not the only one who feels that way.

What makes me me?

My dodgy laugh
My slightly manly sence of humour
My untamable hair
My use of the phrase "the other day"
My stomach that growls during exams and lectures
My flat feet
My diabolical spelling
Putting others above myself
My 5 foot 1 height
My weird music taste
My randomly swelling knees
My ridiculous phone voice
My pale non tanning skin
My inability to sit still
Being the proud owner of the coldest feet in the world

Old before my time ?

Maybe I'm just old before my time but i just don't see the appeal in going out and getting absolutely hammered. It costs so much money, it puts you in harms way and it makes you feel like crap the next day. I've been to a couple of partys where people seem to take it as a challenge to drink as much as they can. Guys drinking crates of beer and bottles of vodka and changing from normal, nice level-headed boys to loud idiots. And where there's guys drinking there will enevitably be girls trying to match them sip for sip drink for drink, never mind the fact they weigh half as much as the guys they will insist they can drink as much.

Pretty soon a drinking game will be suggested then all hell breaks lose. As always someone will push themselves that little bit too far and will spend the rest of the night propped up against a toiler looking for hughie and roulf.
People will wander off and make, or destroy, relationships in a drunken haze. Maybe no-one will remember, maybe everyone will.
Personally i don't see the point, it's not big and its not clever. I wonder what it will take for people to realise this.

"One reason why I don't drink is because i wish to know when i'm having a good time" - Nancy Astor

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